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Friday, November 02, 2012

I want a man, not a boy who thinks he can.

So I met this boy.  No, he wasn’t just a boy. I could’ve sworn I saw a man when I first lay eyes on him.  He was charming, successful, determined.  He knew what he wanted out of life and had a passionate way of living.  He traveled far and wide and here and there for no reason at all, just because he could.  I was fascinated with him - the way he carried himself and spoke with such clarity.  It almost didn’t feel real when he was interested in me.  What would a guy like that want with a girl like me? Little old me - inexperienced, unworldly, insecure.  The exact opposite of what he portrayed himself to be.  Yet there we were making our laps around a mile long lake under the stars and it was epic.  We talked about everything and nothing, connecting in a way that was so effortless.  It was almost as if I’d met him before, for I’d told him things about myself I never reveal for fear of scaring people away.  But I found it easy to be myself with him.  It surprised me when he put his arm around me and gently skimmed my shoulder with his fingers, igniting a feeling I hadn’t felt in ages.  I had almost forgotten what it felt like to be cared for by someone and at the same time, I had never felt more alive.  This feeling was overwhelming, all-consuming.  He seemed to understand me a little more than I knew myself, scaring me because he was always right.  We talked about the future like there was one for us, like there was not a doubt in his mind that we’d become something more.  When the night grew old, he wrapped me up in a hug and kissed my forehead goodnight as I held on to him, never wanting to let go because he left me wanting more.  And then the next day, he disappeared.  No goodbye, no see you later, not even an ‘I-can’t-do-this-anymore’ speech.  The only logical explanation for this vanishing act was that it was all just a dream I had.  One that didn’t come true.  But the romantic text messages and instant memories when I’m not even trying to think about them are a reminder that it was real. At least, I experienced something.  Now, I would give anything to go back there again.  When I went to bed happy and hopeful and not in the least bit heartbroken.


Friday, January 20, 2012

Just close your eyes.

I still remember how we started talking. You made me talk about things I've never told anybody... and then you left.


The best advice that I could give is just to keep moving forward and don't give a shit what anybody thinks, you know. Just keep moving forward and do what you have to do for you.


 leave love to your heart. don't let your head question it. 

I want you to accidentally fall into my life and stay on purpose. Fate is awkward sometimes, but beautiful when it reveals itself over time.


It's those moments when you drive around in a car full of friends around a town too small for you. Where you gasp for breath between each laugh.

Once they see you doing better without them, that's when they want you back.

And life's so hard.  It's the little things that seem to be getting me today, yeah. Life's so hard. But I'm doing what I can to not to be getting down.

I want to see the world. But I'm too afraid of the things that I've never experienced.


Tuesday, December 13, 2011

I'll be home for Christmas, if only in my dreams.

Thank you dolls for all of your comments on my last post. <3 I love you all! Hope you enjoy this one!

(1). I think of the things I want to change, but I know they won't. And I imagine how I want everything to be, and it just makes me sad that it's not that way.

(2). Maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated. 

(3). I just keep telling myself that there will be a significant moment when I finally know what to do.

(4). I want someone who will adore me so much that they cannot even walk past me without touching me in some way.

(5). Sometimes you have to put your hopes in a safe place and come back to them another day.

(6). I’m just so lonely. I don’t know why. I feel a tightness in my throat, my heart speeds up, I can’t breath, and then I feel this emptiness. It’s as if I’m missing something important, and I just don’t know what.

(7). Time passes. Even when it seems impossible. Even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does. Even for me. - Breaking Dawn
(8). "Then he slipped his arm around her waist, pressing his head to hers. She loved that best, even more than fucking. She could never have imagined such a little thing could fill her with such indescribable sweetness, she felt too small to contain it all." 
(9). I know it exists. This love you talk about. Because I've seen it. I've seen it when it's been broken, shattered. Where you feel like hope is lost. And you are what you never wanted to be, the faithless. And I've seen when it lasts. I wonder if it's easy. To leave your heart vulnerable.
(10). Life is like an hourglass. Sooner or later everything hits the bottom. You just gotta be patient and wait for someone to turn it around.
(11). You were a risk. A giant risk. You reminded me of why I don't take risks.
(12). Let me just say this: sometimes things find you when you need them to find you. I believe that.
(13). Unless its mad, extraordinary, passionate love, its a waste of your time. There are too many mediocre things in life, love should not be one of them.
(14). I'm not that good of a person. I make mistakes, I have regrets, and I act like I'm a lot smarter than I actually am. I cry. I laugh way too hard, and things just seem to get me. Basically, I'm saying I'm not perfect but when I'm with you, I forget that, and it just doesn't matter anymore.
(15). I don't care what you think about me. I don't think about you at all.
(16). If I ever make fun of you, it means that my feelings for you are starting to adjust. I'm getting comfortable around you that I could call you names, diss you a few times; because I'm starting to get used to you. I hope you won't take it personal, because you know that I won't hurt your feelings or ever be disrespectful towards you. It doesn't make sense, but this is a way for me to show you that I'm starting to get attached to you.
(17). If someone really wanted you, they'd actually put some effort into trying to get your attention and make sacrifices for you. They won't just tell you they want you; they'd show you in every little way possible that they want you. 
(18). I opened my eyes and found his open, too, staring at my face. It made no sense when he looked at me that way. Like I was the prize rather than the outrageously lucky winner. (Breaking Dawn by Stephenie Meyer) 
(19). Don't attach yourself to anyone who shows you the least bit of attention just simply because you're lonely. Loneliness is the human condition. No one is ever going to fill that space. No matter how badly you might want them to.
(20). "I was waiting for the longest time," she said, "I thought you forgot." 


Wednesday, November 09, 2011

I'm still waiting for my life to begin.

The important thing is for you to believe in something, because I promise you that belief will keep you warm at night, and I want you to feel safe always. And then, there's love. I want you to love to the tips of your fingers and when you find that love, wherever you find it, whoever you choose - don't run away from it. But you don't have to chase after it either. You just be patient, and it'll come to you. Don't be afraid. And remember, to love is to live.

 

Never force yourself to have a space in anyone's life because if they really know your worth, they'll surely create one for you.

 

A pain stabbed my heart, as it did every time I saw a girl I loved who was going the opposite direction in this too-big world. ( On the Road by Jack Kerouac ) 

 

"Some nights I think 'you know what? I don't care. I'm just going to do what I want to do.'" - Kristen Stewart

I got hurt, really hurt; sometimes when that happens something inside me shuts off.

there are moments when it's too quiet. particularly late at night or early in the mornings. that's when you know there's something lacking in your life.

 you don't need to give reasons for the things you do, you just have to do what you want. and sometimes the thing that seems messed up to everyone else is what's right for you. you have to do it and not be ashamed for it. -kristen stewart 

They were exactly what the other needed; the missing piece that made everything else magically click into place. - Jennifer McMahon

 

For once, I want someone to choose me, to fight for me. I want to be wanted.

When it comes to men who are romantically interested in you, it’s really simple. Just ignore everything they say and only pay attention to what they do.

It's okay to feel things and be who you are about them.

And all I ever needed was someone to come around and tell me that I have suffered long enough.


It's the first snow of the year and something's in the atmosphere. First little memories out there soon you'll forget, but I just can't.

I think everyone has a side where they are depressed and unhappy. Some people ignore it. Some people try to change it. Some people completely show it. And some people, they deal with it.


There's something about you that tears me inside out whenever you're around.


Everything passes, everything changes. Just do what you think you should do. 


If someone really wanted you, they'd actually put some effort into trying to get your attention and make sacrifices for you. They won't just tell you they want you; they'd show you in every little way possible that they want you. 

I opened my eyes and found his open, too, staring at my face. It made no sense when he looked at me that way. Like I was the prize rather than the outrageously lucky winner. ( Breaking Dawn by Stephenie Meyer ) 

I think of the things I want to change, but I know they won't. And I imagine how I want everything to be, and it just makes me sad that it's not that way.

Maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated. 

I just keep telling myself that there will be a significant moment when I finally know what to do.


Don't attach yourself to anyone who shows you the least bit of attention just simply because you're lonely. Loneliness is the human condition. No one is ever going to fill that space. No matter how badly you might want them to.


- "I was waiting for the longest time," she said, "I thought you forgot."
- "It is hard to forget," I said, "when there is such an empty space when you are gone." 


I want someone who will adore me so much that they cannot even walk past me without touching me in some way.

Thanks for reading, dolls. xoxo


Friday, September 16, 2011

All my life I was waiting for something

Now Playing: Friends - Band of Skulls

I'm back! *waves* A lot's been going on lately, but I've missed updating! 

there are moments when it's too quiet.

particularly late at night or early in the mornings.

that's when you know there's something lacking in your life.

...you just know.


 I just want that late night movie, make pancakes together, 

cuddle up on the couch, kind of relationship.

I got hurt. Really hurt, and sometimes when that happens something inside me shuts off.

you don't need to give reasons for the things you do, you just have to do what you want. and sometimes the thing that seems messed up to everyone else is what's right for you. you have to do it and not be ashamed for it.
-kristen stewart 

A pain stabbed my heart, as it did every time I saw a girl I loved who was going the opposite direction in this too-big world. 

(On the Road by Jack Kerouac) 

"Never let a man know everything. 

He will use it against you later."

(Oprah Winfrey)

Never force yourself to have a space 

in anyone's life because if they really 

know your worth, they'll surely create 

one for you.


The important thing is for you to believe in something, because I promise you that belief will keep you warm at night, and I want you to feel safe always. And then, there's love. I want you to love to the tips of your fingers and when you find that love, wherever you find it, whoever you choose - don't run away from it. But you don't have to chase after it either. You just be patient, and it'll come to you. Don't be afraid. And remember, to love is to live.

Love is like a rubber band. We keep pulling until someone lets go, and the one that held on, is the one that gets hurt.

The worst feeling is when someone makes you feel special, then suddenly leaves you hanging, and you have to act like you don't care at all. 

They were exactly what the other needed; the missing piece that made everything else magically click into place. - Jennifer McMahon

I’m scared that I’m going to end up alone. I’m scared that I’m always going 

to be somebody’s friend, or sister, or confident, never somebody’s everything.




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